Kakakku telah pergi

 Assalamualaikum wbt.

Baru sebentar tadi saya terima khabar berita tentang kakak sepupu saya. She was a breast cancer patient. Tepat jam 1.45 petang beliau meninggalkan kami. Pergi meninggalkan dunia ini. Allahuakbar. 

Arwah kak ani merupakan sepupu saya yang paling rapat. Kami membesar bersama. Semasa arwah belajar di politeknik KK dulu, arwah selalu singgah bermalam di rumah. Tiap kali balik kampung waktu raya, memang akan cari dan sembang sembang dengan arwah. Masakan arwah memang sedap. Selalu masakkan kami macam-macam. Dan kami hantu sushi. Haha. Every time dia outstation ke KK, we met up and confirm pergi sushi king. Her favourite is salmon, matcha ice cream. Wajib selfie tu. Ramai yang cakap muka kami serupa, macam adik beradik. Hehe. And I proud of that sebab arwah lawa dan baik sangat. :)

Actually pagi tadi sepupu2 dekat tawau sudah inform yang kondisi arwah agak kritikal, oxygen drop and kena pakai tiub oxygen tu lah for a while. Then doktor asked to meet her husband and told him she is in critical condition. Mama terus plan mahu fly ke tawau esok, bersama dengan uncle Kamal dan aunty sharifah. I planned wanna go too but later. Tiket flight memang mahal masa ni. I dunno why. 

Tapi apa kan daya. Allah lebih menyayangi arwah. Agak terkilan kerana tak sempat jumpa arwah di penghujung nyawanya. Allahuakbar allahuakbar allahuakbar. Air mata berjurai jatuh sampai tersedu-sedu. It's not easy. Tapi saya percaya inilah yang terbaik untuk kak ani. Biarlah arwah bertenang di sana. Dibebaskan daripada sakit ini, bebas dari kemo, bebas dari transfuse darah berliter2, bebas dari kepayahan bergerak etc. 

I redha. InsyaAllah. 



Innalillahi wainna ilaihi.
Al fatihah. 
Muliani Muhammad.

Time of death: 1.45pm (18 July 2024)

Xoxo,
Ella


kidney patient (edisi ubat)

 Hi.

Do you know that I've been consuming lots of meds? I bet you don't. I am a kidney patient. I have hypertension, anemia, hyperparathyroidism. I have TCA every 3 months with nephrology, cardio and O&G unit. Hospital is my second home for 10 years. And I'm okay with that. Hehe. I mean, I dah redha with all these hospital thingy. InsyaAllah, please pray for my wellness. :) 

So, let's talk about my current meds. 

1. 


Hah. This is calcium carbonate. The most annoying pills for kidney patient. Haha. You need to chew these with food. That's the rule. XD

2. 

this is for hypertension. nama dia prazosin.

3. 
this is minoxidil. ubat hypertension juga.

4. 

ubat hypertension juga. Perindopril 8mg.

5. 

this is also hypertension meds. bisoprolol.

6. 

this is calcitriol. ubat vitamin d.

That's it. Amacam..banyak kan ubat saya kena consume. Tapi alhamdulillah, ini kira okay ni. I used to consume more meds before this. Now ada kurang sedikit and I am grateful for that. My concern is my blood pressure. It is a bit unstable and fluctuated. I have to strictly take serious on my diet, never miss taking medicines and make sure to exercise (yang light light je). I kena sentiasa ada energy, boleh bergerak ke sana sini, tak pening pening etc. I will know when there is something wrong with my body. Bila tiada selera makan, hmmm something is wrong. Cepat cepat check treatment, check suhu etc. 

Anyway, insyaAllah everything is okay. I believe Allah bagi ujian pada hambanya untuk menghapus dosa yang kita pernah buat, dan juga untuk jentik hati kita agar sentiasa ingat pada Allah. Sesungguhnya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi lebih tenang. Allah maha mengetahui, maha berkuasa, maha penyembuh. InsyaAllah. Allah nak bagi kita masuk syurga. :)

Okay, that's all. Lah rajin pula aku post content two times in a row. Hahaks!

Jam sekarang 10 pagi. Bye.

xoxo,
ella 

<3 <3 <3






asmr

 Assalamualaikum. 

Good morning semua. It's 8.57 am here. Alhamdulillah masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas, berjalan, melihat, merasa, menyentuh etc. Bersyukur pada Allah Maha Esa, Tuhan sekalian alam. Saja ja mau isi masa lapang menulis dalam blog sementara menunggu henpon full charged. Hehe. So, today I want to talk about my current obsession. Hah. 

Do you guys know about ASMR? Yea, the one yang cakap berbisik tu. Surprisingly I loved it. Okay macam ni. A few weeks ago I had sleeping trouble. I susah sangat nak tidur malam. Sometimes I just closed my eyes without getting any sleep at all. I needed a good sleep. Deep sleep. I took meds but still not working. So, I've decided to stop the meds and try to figure out another way. ASMR helps me a lot. I watched ASMR in tiktok and I felt sleepy! Haha. I have my fav channel for this asmr. 



this is one of them. Her tt is ivy asmr. she is so good doing the asmr and makes me so sleepy. :D


this is the second one. i love her. she is amazing. :D

Personally, I love makeup asmr. Feels so real. And I am mesmerized by their content. Maybe for some people it is weird but idc. This is my life. Chehhhhh..haha. Well, if these things can help you sleep why not right. Bukannya salah disisi undang-undang pun kan. ^^ 

Okay that's all about my current obsession. Bye.

xoxo, 
ella

credit picture to pakcik google. <3